just in case

 

just in case you wonder
why you get that feeling that I’m not there
even if I am

my friend will tell you why

in short time she’s known Love
she’s known Loss
and then she’s known Despair

as soon as she met the first one
she quickly realized
she had never loved before

but then she found Loss
that took her by surprise:
she could swear she had suffered from loss before
but she was wrong

when eventually despair knocked on her door
she was unprepared:
confident she had been struggling with pain and sorrow all her life
Despair looked to her like an old and well known friend
again
it was not

Despair struck her so bad she couln’t breath


just in case you wonder
-will she ever love me the way I hope her to?
I hope you find an answer hidden in my words

if she doesn’t reply to texts
does not pick up the phone
can’t plan
can’t let you stay
seems to always be about to say goodbye

that is the reason why

she’s known Love
Loss
Despair
in the blink of an eye

(London 19.7.18)